Good times, Good times

Things are starting to fall in to place for me, and I feel so much better for it. I have some pretty great friends no matter how far they are I know they are never too far! I sometimes fall in to a funk of self pitty of nobody loves me, everybody hates me .... yeah no I am not gonna eat worms! I am thankful to know I have people to kick me in the seat of my pants and hug me right out of it. Some people simply suck and I need to remind myself that is outside of my control. Not to say things are perfect, but hey they are pretty damned awesome!

Today ...

I just finished reading The Hunger Games! Awesome book! There were parts that I could not stop reading it! I will wait to start the second book so I can get some things caught up ... like sleep. :) I told Jes if they mess this movie up I am so walking out of the cinema!

Imbolc celebrations have started at my house. This year I have been a lot lazier than the previous years. Tomorrow it looks like a majority of my day will be spent alone. I am thinking maybe I will make some potato soup and corn bread. Maybe a little wine after the candles are lit.

The celebrations will continue on to the 4th as it is my baby girl's 20th birthday. I plan to bake her a cake and take it over to her new place. It will be her first birthday there. :)

I have a lot of things on my mind lately, but I am not sure if I really want to unleash them on any one. A lot of them are me me me thoughts. This over whelming funk that seems to have settled over me needs to take flight. I really cannot take too much more of it. I have so many blessings to count I don't know why the icks are winning right now. *sighs* I will get through it I always do. :)

Blessed be the growing light and each of your celebrations!

So lately I have been sick a lot more than not so I am excited to be feeling more my self this past week. I am able to get back to my fitness plan and MFP! YAY! I am working on losing a bit of weight hopefully before October. See in October I celebrate my 11th anniversary with my most awesome boyfriend, and we will be getting married. This is something I swore I would never so again, but hey never say never huh!?! (did I mention my thoughts sometimes run smack in to one another and it looks an awful lot like babbling? no? okay I just did.) So lately my worry has been about making sure everything is as it needs to be for our ceremony. I still have little things that I need to make sure are taken care of. I am not planning a big church wedding. *shakes head* No no no. My ceremony will be a simple means to celebrate our union.

Essentially this ceremony is for the two of us to celebrate, and I know this. I do not feel the need to over spend and make it over the top, but I do worry about little things that I do wish to want:

• the cake
• photography
• my hair and make up
• the venue
• the reception 
• the honeymoon
• my dress
• his clothes (what ever he wants to wear
• the officiant
• the invitation list
• food
• drink
• music
• videos
• pictures
• bridal party
• handfasting rope
• the ceremony its self

I simply want this to be about us sharing our celebration with our loved ones. I want it to be so much more than my first wedding. I do not want to ask for help, but I do. I feel silly about this, but it is making me a little crazy. I maybe need to meditate on this a little bit? In all honesty I could marry this man in a potato sack alone at the sewage lagoons and be happy, but I want this to be a special celebration that means something to both of us.

Bessed be <3 

Getting started ...

I have not had a blog in many years. I used to blog with Myspace, but when they added the games and made some of those silly changes I weened myself of that addiction. I then choose to follow some friends over to Facebook. *sighs* Facebook has REALLY been a pain with all of their changes so I decided to try to transition over in to Google+. That may not be going so smoothly as not all of my friends have opened up to Google+ yet. So it seems I am going to float around until I find a place to land again. This is going to be my attempt to return to blogging.

If you do not already know me you should be fairly warned: I am fairly dyslexic and will transpose my letters occasionally, add to that I am horrible at spelling and oh what a mix. I am open minded and tend to shy away from closed minded people. Above all else I am me, I always will be me, and more than not I enjoy being me. I will appreciate you being you, much more than you trying to be something else. I love to read, play games, cook, do crafts, watch movies, spend time with my friends and family, getting exercise where I can, yoga, animals, divination, helping others, working with PaintShop Pro, and so much more. So if you are still here ... well either you know me, or maybe you want to get to know me. So let's get on with this journey shall we .....